Well, I have some hesitation in writing this, because once I put it on the web, it will be official. And I am not sure I want this to be official. On the other hand, when I started this blog, I made the decision that it would be for the purpose of honestly sharing my process. I don’t want this to be just a marketing blog. My friends and clients have told me that what I offer is wonderful but it does no good if no one can find me. They told me “you HAVE to be on the web”. So I gave in to them, but told myself I wouldn’t just use this to sell my services, but would also use it to share my process, which (I think) would be helpful to others.
So this part of my process is probably the most important thing going on with me right now and honesty requires that I share it. So here it is: apparently, I am transitioning to living on light; that is, no longer needing food to sustain me. I have been through something similar in the past, so it is not so disconcerting as it might otherwise be.
Like most people, or at least most Americans, I was raised by my parents to be a meat eater; taught that if you didn’t get enough protein from meat you would not be healthy because meat was the only place you could get all the amino acids the human body requires. When I became a vegetarian, around 1983, it was not for ethical or health reasons. It was not because I became aware of the horrors of factory farming, or the health benefits of vegetarianism. I became a vegetarian because, quite simply, my appetite/desire for meat and my ability to digest it–just went away.
The very first incident happened on my lunch break from my job at the time. I had an hour for lunch and drove to the drive-thru window of my favorite hamburger place and ordered a cheeseburger, as usual. I took one bite, and instantly realized I didn’t want it. I forced myself to eat another bite, and it was all I could do to finishing chewing it. Since I had already purchased it, did not have time to go anywhere else, and was still hungry, I forced myself to finish the cheeseburger. It sat undigested in my stomach for 4 days! I could feel it, like a big lump, in my stomach.
Beef, pork, and chicken basically just went away pretty much immediately. I held on to tuna fish for as long as I could, because I was convinced I would die if I didn’t get protein. Still, after about a year and a half, I was totally meat free. In the mean time, I did research on what vegetables had the most protein because I still believed I needed protein, and lots of it. (not true–most Americans die from too much protein). Of course, this exposed me to what I like to jokingly call “vegetarian propaganda”. Which informed me about the horrors of factory farming and the health benefits of a vegetarian diet. Read “Diet for a New America” by John Robbins, and I’d be amazed if you did not become a vegetarian, if you aren’t one already. I think there is also a video available.
This is all just preamble to say that I have prior experience with radical changes in my diet which “just happened” without any conscious intention on my part. The whole loss of the ability to eat meat thing did kind of freak me out at first, but here it is some 31 years later, and I am doing great. So this latest transition is not freaking me out.
It was very subtle. First, one day I suddenly realized that I no longer ate fruit. Fruit used to be my favorite food and I was still buying it out of habit. But I would always wind up throwing it away because it would go bad before I ate it. Then I became conscious of the fact that I no longer had any desire for most of my favorite vegetables. I no longer ate bread. Further, it seemed to me that I was not eating a normal amount of food.
I mentioned this to several people: my wife, a doctor I knew, and a friend. The response I got from all of them was essentially the same one: “probably it just seems like that to you, but you don’t look like you’re losing weight, so it is probably nothing”. In other words, no one took me seriously. So I decided to get some reality around the whole thing. I started keeping a daily log of what I ate, and how much. I went on the internet and got the calorie counts for the foods I was eating as well as how many calories a man my age, weight, height, and life-style was supposed to be consuming on a daily basis.
Here is what I found out. According to all the websites, I should be consuming around 2200 calories per day. If I want to lose weight, I should be consuming around 1800 calories per day, and anything less than 1500 calories per day would be medically dangerous.
I consume less than 900 calories per day. I even recently went 10 days without food, because I simply was not hungry. My weight has remained unchanged. Funnily enough, I will run into past acquaintances at various places and they might say, “you’ve lost some weight”, but then a few hours later I meet someone who says “looks like you’ve gained some weight there”. So I would go home and get on the scales and find that I weigh exactly the same as I always have. I think it may have something to do with the energy body.
At any rate, I am not freaking out this time and instead I am just watching my process with an open mind. I don’t know if I will wind up completely food free or not. To say nothing of water. I am not afraid of where this may lead, if anywhere. I just share this so that others going through a similar experience may not feel so alone. I myself have received great benefit from studying what Jasmuheen and Jericho Genesis Sunfire have put on the web. You can just google them and get a ton of hits. More specifically, I have found the following article and meditation very helpful:
http://projectavalon.net/forum4/showthread.php?34696-Breatharianism-and-living-on-Prana-a-how-to-guide&s=3006d03095013ec0dec512d76277ca5b
Sacred Breath 